This year, I am only turning 19, but at such a young age, I already have a son. My little boy is one and a half years old. His biological father is unaware of the existence of the child, as I considered it necessary.
Upon learning about my pregnancy, I made the decision to quit my job quickly. I avoided encounters with the father of my child. It was difficult for me, and I pondered for a long time whether I made the right decision. However, the thought that if he finds out about my son, he might take him away haunted me.
Mykita, the father of my son, comes from a wealthy family, and I am just a simple girl with nothing, and I don’t have parents either because I grew up in an orphanage. I’m a girl with no one to protect me. After a long time, changes occurred in my personal life, and I entered into a relationship with a man.
He is very simple, a regular worker in production, engaged in welding. Recently, I started noticing that I feel nauseous all the time. I took a test and found out that I am pregnant. Although I know that we cannot afford two children, finances don’t allow it at all, but I still want this child. But thoughts visit me that my husband, upon learning this news, will simply disappear from my life. And how will I cope with two children on my own, especially since I don’t work, and how will I find a job to provide for the little one?
And what about maternity leave? I also can’t decide whether to get rid of the child. Although for me, it is considered a sin, isn’t it worse to condemn children to a life of hunger? Will my son or daughter be grateful in the future for saving their life? I am confused about what to do. I torment myself with my thoughts. Sometimes it seems to me that there is no way out.
